yuting

afresh

2008-09-30T11:00:00.000-07:00

a sudden urge to pen down somethings
i guess i've decided to give everything an end
to keep you away from my thoughts
prolly you're better w her now,
but these times, i've always wanted to ask 'how are you'
'how have things been going for you?'
but i pulled everything back
maybe i will jst heard of you from people
will that be better?
but now as of today, guess things are doing great for you and maybe her
since something cant be amend, i wont think of anything else anymore
maybe i will jst be missing you, nothing elses
i cant change you, i wont want to either
but i will change myself, giving myself a new start
this time is for real
i will start afresh,
i will stand back on my feet
even though at times i will look back,
but i wont cry wanting them back again
letting free of everything ,
i'm gonna keep it going by myself
even if it meant by walking it myself
w.o you
i will do so

hardest goodbye,
but yet , thanks ~~love~~

2008-07-16T01:07:00.000-07:00

i tried , i refrained myself from thinking .
but for the times i saw you in school today
i couldnt, even it was t see you from afar
when agnes told me about her and jul jst now
she gave jul a chance t ammend things
cus she reminded of both of us
i told her , why couldnt you be the same?
it has been a week since we last talked
it maybe a week , but its seems so long
getting more & more distant from you
so much i wanted t tell you t share with you
t tell you how much i miss you, miss your companion
miss your smile that brighten each day of mine
i really miss you

i wanna hold you till i die
till we both breakdown and cry
i wanna hold you till the fear in me subside

2008-07-14T23:00:00.000-07:00

pretty long since i get back t blogging .
shall post about other things the next round
now , i guess i jst want t dictate this post t you,

so many things happened for the past months.
i remembered our first message, our first date , our first bus ride
& the list goes down.
i thought of the times you took the time off t see me home
t have bus rides of our own.
sitting quietly by you outside vivo
hogging on the phone late at night
till now , everything still running through my mind
the time you held me tightly late at night at east coast
when i look back at the times now , i would smile
picturing you eating with your hands covering half of the mouth
smiling with your mouth wide open
for now , i tried t get you off my mind
you and her ?you and me?
i tried, i tried finding reasons t explain for the things btw us
t make me feel better
till now , you may never find it wrong
the guy i thought who held the feelings still
was lying on the arms of hers
it was just an indescrible feeling
a feeling of disappointment, saddness , anything
i even pictured the image of you cuddling
for days i thought through everything.
too silly for me t hold on still , too silly t cry over you
when you could have her
too silly t have the trust in you agn
i dont want t think of anything else more
now all i know was , i will still remember you as the guy
who never fail t make people arnd him smile,
the guy who is ever friendly
ever there t render his help t others
i came across someone 's blog jst now
saw that you fell ill recently
jst hope that you will get well soon .
for the last time , always be mindful of your injury
take care (:

HELLO!

2008-07-11T00:48:00.001-07:00

HELLO, I'M MEI HELPING YT DO UP HER BLOGSKIN.
BETTER THANK &SAY YOU LOVE ME OKAY YT!

:D
Aww... i luff you too.